No Smoking – Day 1:
I woke up around 6, then 6:30, then 7, then, well you get the idea, I finally surfaces around 11am this morning, the severity of my hangover was amazing, I slept on and off from about 5pm, the sleep was punctated with waking up feeling awful or coughing or both, occasionally I had a full sweat on. I tried watching a film (Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist) which took my mind of the hangover successfully for 2 hours (it’s a very good film, soundtrack amazing, predictable ending though) but as soon as I tried to crash out I felt bad again. After watching the film it was time to go for one last cigarette, at abut 11:40pm I smoked that last cigarette. It was a nice cigarette. I miss it already.
I then proceeded to head back to bed were I lay awake and thought about a few things for a while before putting on the Paul McKenna Relaxation/Quit smoking MP3. That certainly did it’s job, I relaxed and I dozed off to the sounds of McKenna’s voice, I woke up about an hour later, the mp3 had finished and I twisted and turned and attempted to sleep again.
At around 6 when I clearly had got a couple of hours sleep, I woke up quickly. I coughed up a lungful and went back to sleep, I can vaguely remember words and phrases from the audio saying things like “your lungs are relaxing” so maybe they relaxed enough to losen some of the debris that no doubt fills them up.
Today itself has been purely about doing as little as possible, especially anything that is part of my monday routine. I’ve not been at work today so there are no temptations there and i’ve hardly eaten which helps me stop having the after meal cigarette. I had to call into a conference call this afternoon but apart from watching episodes of Two and a Half Men, The Sarah Silverman show and what was the best waste of a couple of hours, Shoot ‘Em Up, I’ve done nothing, on purpose, to resist temptation.
I have definitely felt like smoking several times today but i’ve not resorted to playing the MP3 again, or giving in. I will be strong, I’ve typed this up about 10 times to make my fingers do things and I’m now rambling, time to treat myself to a Pizza and and attempt to beat the temptation of a post meal cigarette.
